The Story of F and M: Shadow of the Dark

F and M have been friend since the secondary school. M loves to give presents, flowers, chocolate and always protect and care of her. F love M but only as a friend. However, M cannot accept his love has been rejected. He feels insulted and he wants to avenge. One night, M called F and said he needs help. Unfortunately, M raped F. F lodged a police report and M was captured and sent to prison for 20 years.

Since that day, F really hates M. Everything regarding M, make her remember back about that tragedy. When she looks at the other guys she will get traumatize again. Especially, when it is related to M for examples, the color of his shirt, his perfumes, the way he walks and the style of his hair on that night, even though he was not M. Every time she heard the same kind of voice like M, she will become anxious. She will experience the same feelings when that moment happened. She also cannot hear the same name like M. She will think he is the same guy who raped her, although she knows M was in prison. All the things that happened feel just like yesterday.

Since that incident F became worse. She tried to commit suicide, but she was helped and saved by her family. From a cheerful girl, she became paranoid. She doesn't want befriend with any guy anymore. Whenever some guys want to befriend with her, she strongly avoids. She thinks that all men are the same like M which was trying to take an advantage on her. She does not want the same thing to happen again, so she made a decision to not make a friend with any guy anymore.

After many years, now, she is a doctor. She lives her life as normal as she can. Although that terrific memory still haunted her, she tried to forget it. Due to her responsibility, she needs to interact and treat many people equally. She has some males colleague , but she puts a wall between them. She turns to a very careful person in choosing friends among male. Even though M betrayed her, F now try not to generalize other man same as him. She start to make friends again with males but she put a gap between them.  

It has been 10 years, since the tragedy happened. F meets a good guy. He is caring, adorable, loving and funny. She falls in love with him. There is no hatred in her heart anymore and they plan to get married. A month before their wedding, F go into the basement in her house to find her old book. Suddenly, an old photo falls from the book. She feels scared because it is a photo of M. After a long time the hatred gone, it come back. Her broken heart appeared again and she cries terribly.

             At night, she performed prayer, bow down to the Creator, praised Him and asked Him for the calmness and guidance. She knows that this is just a little challenge in her life. Allah loves all His creation. He never burdens anyone with more than he or she can bear. She knows she'll be happy with her future husband because she realizes and believes that after every dark night, there is always a bright sunlight.